A Schneider Family Book Award HonorA 2025 School Library Journal Best Book of the YearA deeply moving middle grade novel in verse about a girl struggling with depression as she starts fifth grade amid a sea of changes. Now in paperback. Ten-year-old Pearl loves watching the majestic loggerhead turtles and octopuses glide through the water at the aquarium. Pearl finds it especially easy to identify with the octopuses, who have millions of touch receptors all over their bodies. They feel everything. Sometimes Pearl wishes she was more like a turtle, with a hard outer shell--it hurts too much to feel everything. And the changes at the start of fifth grade don't feel good to Pearl at all. New teachers, lockers, and being in different classes than her friends is unsettling. Pearl tries her best to pretend she's fine, but she starts to struggle with things that used to come easy, like doing schoolwork; laughing and skateboarding with her best friend, Rosie; running; and even sleeping. After
