Sacred and Restored: My Journey from Childhood Trauma and a Life of Addiction

"My Grace is sufficient for you, for my power is perfected in weakness" 2Corinthians 12:9 I was born on an indian reserve called Akwesasne in upstate ny. My reserve is unique in that it straddles the american, ontario and quebec borders. I was raised in an abusive alcoholic home. I ran away the day i turned 16 to escape the abuse and a friend of mine and myself hitchhiked to texas. After i came back from there i was on my own. I got into trouble alot and my alcohol and drug addiction was already a problem. Because of the border situation on the reserve there was always smuggling goin on. I ended up supporting myself nicely and got dragged into the fast easy money of that life.Living that lifestyle was as addicting as the drugs..The rush of getting away with it and the money was intoxicating. It never really filled the emptiness i always felt. The feeling of not being loved or being damaged never went away no matter how much drugs i did..As the years went on and i went through relationship after relationship my addiction turned to crack and there was no stopping me . I lost my children and my soul to that drug and lifestyle.. This i my story of how i finally found the strength in my weakest moment and began on this new journey .Ive survived my whole life and its only now that i have begun to live. I am learning from my past, doing the best i can today and i have hope today. I love myself and am truely grateful to be alive today.