thru the I of the storm

I chose the theme of me emerging from a storm because as I revisited the season during which I was battling COVID, there was a storm brewing inside of me, which was totally unrelated to COVID or my physical health; it was all about my spiritual health.

I felt like I had been swept up into this tornado-like storm, and rain, thunder, and lightening came out of nowhere and as hard as I tried to get my footing, I couldn't, so I gave up and was just being tossed here, there and everywhere and during that time, my life was flashing before my eyes and I kept seeing images of things that hurt me in my past and how there was always a way out but I was too afraid to take it, so I stayed in those places.

I kept seeing myself balled up in a corner behind a wall and I truly believe my period of quarantine was symbolic of that wall because as hard as I was trying to keep people from getting in, I hindered myself from being able to get out. And because of that, I stayed trapped in bondage. I believe God caused this storm to hover over me for so long to allow Him time to revive me because I felt spiritually dead.