Fi: A Memoir of My Son (The Pulitzer Prize Finalist)

本書是作家亞歷珊卓・富勒寫給過世兒子的回憶錄，記錄她在經歷這場突如其來的巨大傷痛後，如何一步步學習面對失落、繼續生活。兒子Fi在21歲時安靜離世，讓她原本就因家庭變故、失去父親與家鄉而動盪的生活更加難以承受。她帶著悲傷，在美國與加拿大各地尋找慰藉，透過自然、靜修與詩歌慢慢整理情緒。這本書誠實地分享她作為母親的心路歷程，雖沒有標準答案，但提供了陪伴悲傷與理解自己的方式。是一部真摯、貼近人心的作品。

A New York Times and Washington Post Notable Book of the Year

A New York Times Editors' Choice

A TIME Top 10 Nonfiction Book (#2) and Must-Read Book of the Year

An Amazon Editors' Pick for Best Biographies & Memoirs of April

From the award-winning New York Times-bestselling author of Don’t Let’s Go To The Dogs Tonight, Alexandra Fuller, comes a career defining memoir about grieving the sudden loss of her twenty-one-year-old child

“A mesmeric celebration of a boy who died too soon, a mother’s love and her resilience. It will help others surviving loss — surviving life.” — David Sheff, New York Times

“Fair to say, I was in a ribald state the summer before my fiftieth birthday.” And so begins Alexandra Fuller’s open, vivid new memoir, Fi. It’s midsummer in Wyoming and Alexandra is barely hanging on. Grieving her father and pining for her home country of Zimbabwe, reeling from a midlife breakup, freshly sober and piecing her way uncertainly through a volatile new relationship with a younger woman, Alexandra vows to get herself back on even keel.

And then – suddenly and incomprehensibly - her son Fi, at 21 years old, dies in his sleep.

No stranger to loss - young siblings, a parent, a home country - Alexandra is nonetheless leveled. At the same time, she is painfully aware that she cannot succumb and abandon her two surviving daughters as her mother before her had done. From a sheep wagon deep in the mountains of Wyoming to a grief sanctuary in New Mexico to a silent meditation retreat in Alberta, Canada, Alexandra journeys up and down the spine of the Rocky Mountains in an attempt to find how to grieve herself whole. There is no answer, and there are countless answers – in poetry, in rituals and routines, in nature and in the indigenous wisdom she absorbed as a child in Zimbabwe. By turns disarming, devastating and unexpectedly, blessedly funny, Alexandra recounts the wild medicine of painstakingly grieving a child in a culture that has no instructions for it.

Alexandra Fuller is the author of four memoirs, including Don’t Let’s Go To The Dogs Tonight– a New York Times Notable Book for 2002, the 2002 Booksense Best Non-fiction book, a finalist for the Guardian’s First Book Award and the winner of the 2002 Winifred Holtby Memorial Prize – and the New York Times-bestselling Cocktail Hour Under the Tree of Forgetfulness, two books of non-fiction, and the novel Quiet Until The Thaw. Her writing has appeared in the New Yorker, National Geographic, Granta, The New York Times, Guardian and Financial Times.