First Time, Long Time

《First Time, Long Time》是 Amy Silverberg 的首部小說，描述一位年輕女性 Allison 在洛杉磯追尋自我身份與成長的故事。Allison 是個懷抱寫作夢想的二十八歲女子，自哥哥意外去世、父母情感動盪之後，她一直被過去的悲痛和家庭影響所束縛。搬到洛杉磯後，她希望自己能成為自己故事的主角，但依舊感到迷惘、孤獨，寫作陷入停滯，只靠教英文為生。

在這樣的生活狀態中，Allison 偶遇著名廣播DJ Reid Steinman——一位她父親與故去兄長崇拜的對象。她迅速被 Reid 吸引，這段錯綜複雜的關係讓她重新面對過去的傷痛與自我認同問題。更複雜的是，Allison 同時和 Reid 的成年女兒 Maddie 之間發展出一段微妙且強烈的感情糾葛，兩段關係形成了一個情感上的三角拉鋸。

《First Time, Long Time》透過坦率的自省、敏銳的觀察與妙趣橫生的冷嘲熱諷，提出問題：當一名年輕女子愛上一位聲名顯赫且需求強烈的男人，她的夢想將會如何改變？當過去依然充滿未解的糾結，她又該如何前行？

這是一部帶著真實感與幽默、直面情感複雜性的成長小說，對於喜歡探索身份、慾望與家庭傷痛交織的讀者來說，是一部值得注意的出色首作。

"[T]he funniest debut book of the year." --Debutiful

For readers of Emma Cline and Melissa Broder, "a brilliant novel about becoming more the person you're meant to be," following an untethered, sardonic young woman who falls for an older man and begins to lose herself (Roxane Gay).
Aspiring writer and all-around naive person Allison expected her life to finally take shape when she moved to Los Angeles. After years grieving her brother's untimely death and allowing her mercurial father's feelings and desires to infect her own, she feels ready to become the main character in her own story again. But in LA, as with anywhere else, she's rudderless, unable to write and barely scraping by as an English teacher.
So when she has a serendipitous run in with famed radio personality Reid Steinman, an idol of her father's and her late brother's, she's eager to see where their relationship might go, and who she might become. Caught in his thrall, she falls back into her old self-effacing patterns, struggling to maintain the boundaries of her own identity. Suddenly, an unanticipated lifeline emerges: an intoxicating tryst with Reid's adult daughter, Maddie. She's forced to balance her romance with Reid with her gnawing desire for the intoxicatingly charming Maddie, as it becomes increasingly evident that she and Allison's late brother share more than a few qualities.
Through candid self-awareness, keen observations, and deliciously wry humor, First Time, Long Time asks, what happens to a young woman's goals when she becomes involved with a famous man whose needs seem so much louder than her own? And how might she move forward when so much in her past remains unresolved?