The Cost of Light

In The Cost of Light, Clauthia "Thia" Rai Fields shares an unflinching memoir that traces her journey through heartbreak, silence, and renewal. Written with raw honesty and lyrical depth, this first installment of a three-part memoir begins in the shadows - the tender places where love, loss, and legacy collide.

From the devastation of grief to the quiet courage of survival, Fields reveals the personal battles that shaped her voice and her vision for a life rebuilt on her own terms. She writes about family bonds, the ache of absence, the burden of expectations, and the fire of resilience with a clarity that resonates far beyond her own story.

Part One captures the earliest movement of a larger symphony - one woman's cost of becoming, of holding both sorrow and beauty in the same breath. The pages are intimate yet universal, reaching anyone who has struggled to find hope in the darkness, who has questioned their worth, or who has longed for the courage to begin again.

More than a memoir, The Cost of Light is an invitation: to heal, to rise, and to embrace the truth that light is never free, but it is always worth the cost.

This book will resonate with readers of memoirs about resilience, spirituality, grief, and self-discovery - echoing the voices of authors like Glennon Doyle, bell hooks, and Joan Didion. Whether read on its own or as the opening of the complete trilogy, Part One offers a profound reflection on the cost and gift of living fully awake.