The End of My Life Is Killing Me: The Unexpected Joys of a Cancer Slacker

In a world full of cancer warriors, alt-cure influencers, and "beat this thing" hashtags, bestselling author and actress Annabelle Gurwitch has coined a new identity: the cancer slacker.

When diagnosed with out-of-the-blue stage IV lung cancer, Annabelle doesn't vow to biohack her body, conquer marathons, or document a heroic wellness journey. Instead, she convinces herself to adopt a "just say yes" frame of mind. The problem? She's not a "just say yes" kind of woman.

This darkly funny, sharply observed essay collection illustrates what happens when, faced with impending mortality, the most curmudgeonly makes the shockingly positive and life-altering decision to embrace (almost) everything that comes her way--even if it means confiding in strangers, opening herself to love, and signing on to sell merch for a heavy metal band on van tour of Europe.

With her signature wit and humor, Annabelle shows that sometimes the bravest way through isn't to fight harder, but to laugh louder, and slack your way toward something like grace.