A Lost Future: A Mothers Story of Love and Loss

In Lauren's Story - A Lost Future, Gerri Moore offers a raw, heartfelt, and profoundly courageous memoir that chronicles the devastating loss of her nine-week-old daughter, Lauren Claire Findell, to Sudden Infant Death Syndrome (SIDS). Through vivid recollection, tender reflection, and deep emotional honesty, Gerri invites readers into the most vulnerable chapter of her life-an experience that no parent ever expects to live through.

The book opens with the joy of pregnancy and the beauty of Lauren's birth, juxtaposed with the immediate breakdown of Gerri's marriage and the sudden shock of parenting alone. What unfolds is not just the story of grief, but of survival, strength, and the enduring power of a mother's love.

Gerri's narrative brings the reader into the intimate moments of that fateful Mother's Day when she discovered Lauren had died in her sleep. She captures, in detail, the emotional chaos, the disbelief, and the numbing heartbreak that followed. From the haunting stillness of that day, through the cold procedural aspects of post-mortem and funeral planning, to the long and painful path toward self-forgiveness, Gerri offers a voice for all parents who have lost a child-one that says, "You are not alone."

Each chapter is a window into the phases of loss and healing:

• A Lifetime in Nine Weeks explores how life spiraled after her husband left and how the burden of silent struggle shaped those precious final weeks with Lauren.

• Chaos & Guilt unveils the depth of internal blame and how the societal expectations of motherhood can intensify grief.

• After the Earthquake and The Funeral walk readers through the isolating logistics of death while showing the crucial role of compassion from strangers and professionals.

• Lessons Learnt and Learning Self-Forgiveness share the wisdom born from trauma and the long process of reclaiming a future without erasing the past.

The memoir also becomes a call to action-for friends, families, and health professionals-to listen better, speak names without fear, and understand that bereaved parents want to feel their child's existence is remembered and honoured.

In her final chapters, Gerri reflects on new beginnings, the love of her other children and grandchildren, and how Lauren's short life has inspired her purpose in coaching, NLP practice, and helping others navigate grief and emotional healing.

Through poetic prose and fierce vulnerability, Lauren's Story - A Lost Future is more than a memoir. It's a guidebook for the grieving, a resource for professionals, and a tribute to the power of unconditional love.