Expression of a Nightmare, the Richard L. Foxe Story ─ How I Became a Servant of Allah-god

I thank God for blessing me and being there for me in so many ways in my life-time, I thank Him for the phenomenal gift of memory He has instilled in me; fore, without this gift I would not be able to write this testimony of my life. I feel it is very important that I invest the time into recording my life story, because my life has truly been a very unique experience if I must say so myself. You might ask, what is so different and unique about your life than anyone esles? Well, I would have to say nothing, other than I did take the time to record and ther-by inscribe my life into History as a testimony for anyone who may be able to relate to any of my real life experiences. We are all writers, we write out and formulate the intricate and complicated acts of 'the Great Play'; But, we write sometimes not realizing that we ourselves are also the actor's, producers, and key grips in which the play must commence, we are also the audience, and whan viewing what is taking place upon the stage of life we sometimes must sit back, and watch the play unfold not contemplatinf the fact that if we do not like the event's and experiences, and direction in which this play is leading, we as observers can become involved, and active ourselves, thus changing the out come of eaxch act, there-by change the perpetual destiny of the complete play. It is Gods Creation And we must never lose sight of that fact Man has got to dispel from his mind that he is somehiow this helpless pawn ina Universal Chess game, we must all realize that in the over all scheme of mans destiny there lies very Beautiful, Expressive Horizons, just waiting for us to reach, and in turn once reached another more Grand Horizon of Existence then Looms ahead coming into our view. Everything we do as individuals affects the 'whole of humanity'; therefore, everything we do either hastens or hinders the Spiritual development of aus all. Myprayer is that anyone who reads this book will come to realize that 'no one' is ever alone in this life that we live, because God is 'always near', and at best when there are times we feel most desolate and afflicted, it is at these times that His Presence draws even nearer to our heart's, and our mind's and all we have to do is 'Humble ourselves' and call on Him with a 'lowly spirit', He will come into your life as though there is a physical being present with you by way of the 'Holy Spirit'. He will cause you to lift your head up and face this worlds life with courage, dignity, pride, and respect for the beautiful world He created for us to be a part of, and by far; The World, with all of it's shame, druggery, and broken dreams' it's still a 'most beautiful place'. This book is not being written to glorify being a convicted felon but rather it is part of the story of my life, I Pray that who ever reads this book takes the time to reflect and look into their own lives using my life story as a pattern or guide for themselves. My leader and teacher the late Hoborable W. D. Mohammad (May the Peace and Blessing of Allah- God forever be upon him) always taught us/ his followers to accept the best of our humanity and to extend the moral and ethical values of Al- Islam to the general American public which is what this book is all about, so I implore Allah- God that you the reader will benefit from the pages of this book in your own individual quest of seeking knowledge.