Hibernation: Kaleidoscope Photography Journals (2016 - 2020)

I didn t even realise this, more than a decade has passed, since I started collecting any objects which are reflective, like glass bottles, transparency of plastics, mirrors, stainless steel plates, etc. Then, created abstract kaleidoscopic sculptures, then out of those sculptures, it transformed to hand-made lenses of camera, started taking kaleidoscopic photographs, as if I have been always trying to express more and more accurately what is happening in my internal landscapes. So over those decades, I could not avoid starting to see my thinking patterns psychologically, through the way I see, through my own perception. Some visual images or tendencies of the way how I get attracted in certain ways, are not explainable in a verbal manner. Though, by digging deeper, I caught some moments, who I really was, who I really am, who I really wish to be. Whatever we experience, most of the times, it is not logic, and even not enough to explain verbally to others. Yet, visual images would haunt us, stay with us, unexplainably, like it or not. The hardest person to understand could be ourselves, most of times. Or say, as we wish our own growth, in order to head for evolving. All of us are brainwashed in some ways by environment, society, birth and upbringing conditions, then naturally, we do wear colour glasses, so in order to set ourselves free from those colour glasses, I found my art is a kind of therapeutic effect that could be displayed, be shared with others.