In the Belly of a Seed: Awakening Inner Potential for Authentic Wholeness (Revised Version)

In this book, I trace the winding paths of my life: the fragile beginnings of childhood, the shaping of character and personality, the search for health and wholeness, the awakening of faith, the long seasons of formation, the call to consecrated life and priesthood, and the outward journeys of mission and ministry. Alongside the joys, I speak also of the shadows—the doubts and struggles, the inner conflicts and external storms that tested my roots. I share how I learned to make peace with what I could not change, and to integrate what once felt broken into something whole. Woven through these stories are the theoretical voices of philosophy, psychology, anthropology, theology, missiology and spirituality—threads of wisdom that helped me make sense of my experience, and that my experience, in turn, has made more real and whole.
The narrative takes root in a landscape of critical reflection and scholarly inquiry, making the personal and the academic converse with each other—experience becoming text, and text breathing life back into experience, and it is in their meeting that true understanding deepens. My hope in writing this book is not only for personal growth but also it might invite the readers to pause, to turn inward, to listen for the seeds lying quiet within themselves, to recognize their intrinsic potential and to tend them gently until they sprout and bloom.